Life

I'm going through a huge transition in my life, and you know, for what it is, I'm taking it pretty well. Of course, my head feels like it's going to explode sometimes, but for the most part I'm able to wake up every morning and smile about something - many things - in my life. My secret is simply keeping my goals and dreams in front of me, appreciating every little thing I have, and remembering that I am in control of myself. A mentor of mine said, "I always ask myself why people want to give others so much power over their feelings by saying, 'you made me mad.' No, those are your feelings, own them. You generate the feelings you feel and the thoughts you think. Other people influence them, but you ultimately control them." And it's so true. I live for that right there. I'm reading "Slaughterhouse Five" right now, and I finally watched "Scarface" for the first time yesterday. NUTS! These two works of literature were driving me insane! I mean, Slaughterhouse - that poor Billy Pilgrim! And, Scarface. Tony Montana... Yikes. Manolo on the other hand... Anyway, those are my thoughts for the day. I'm dedicating this blog to my newest favorite song, and a very accurate, instrumental metaphor of life ironically named... Life by John Dahlback. Enjoy. SG http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBVjXIseNOE

P.S. I Love Me

"A worrier lives in the future." True ain't it? One of the biggest mentors in my life fed me that one, and I love it. It's a little disheartening when you let yourself self-sabatoge, and that's a very loose term. I mean, self-sabotage is different for everyone. Its subjective, absolutely. Regardless of what shape or form it's in though, it's damaging. I think the only remedy to self-sabatoge is recognizing it's irrationality and replacing it with a more realistic thought process. I tend to compare myself with other people, which ultimately means I base my worth on who is around me. Talk about irrationality. I mean, my components are there 24/7, regardless of who is around me, and I'm damn proud of them even if I don't necessarily show it all the time. It's about learning to love and accept yourself at all costs, regardless of where you are, what you're doing and who you're with. You will always be you. Recognize yourself and your characteristics. All of us are such valuable people, we barely notice it. We're walking feelings, each unique from each other, what's more precious than that? All these stressors and all these insecurities... They take away from what you could be doing too. I mean, it's not what you should be doing. It's what you could be doing. What could you be doing instead of being your worse enemy? You could be being your best friend and support system, making your life goals and progress more readily at grasp. Here's a song for you that advises it's listers to "Follow my dream like a dream ought to be followed": Daydream - Midi Matilda. Anyway, what I'm working on realizing is that you can only compare yourself to yourself. Are you a better person than you were yesterday? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GzdyhuhE694 -SG